A new Blog Blog?

I believe this would be my third attempt at creating and maintaining a Blog. Or perhaps my 5th or 6th, if you counted my angsty adolescence - hood diaries online or my teen fangirl rambles on LiveJournal.

I'm hoping this will be a longer project, seeing as Blogger seems to have updated itself rather fantastically with all its fancy widgets and gadgets. As it is now more customisable, I no longer have to go through the headache of coding my own Blog like I did back here, or update easily from my snazzy Japanese mobile phone but get fed up re-writing all the Japanese garble for each and every Blog entry. I've also missed not typing out an actual entry, rather than just "EATING CAKE, NOW, OMG" in the Twitter format I did for my previous Blog.
I'm actually scared that I've become quite illiterate. Considering the course I studied at University was 'English language and Literature', I ironically have a very low bank of vocabulary, and as I tend to revert to repeating the same words and phrases constantly, Thesaurus.com has become my best friend. I'm hoping that by beginning to write more, as pointless as these Blog entries may be, I can regain my English language-literature student pride. And I should read more. My god, I really should read. I can't remember the last time I finished a book.


I'm keeping the Blog public again, in case by magic some stranger will drop by and find this Blog amazing and infomative and be alll "I can relate to your experiences too, whoopee!" Or not.
It's for my own pleasure mostly. I still do love writing. I find that I can sound a lot more intellectual when I write. When I speak, especially now since living in Japan for 2 years and not going back to dear old England once, I find that my language is slowly disintegrating. (I also realise my spelling skills are going down the drain; this post has already had at least 6 or 7 ugly red squiggly lines under a lot of words, of which I will ignorantly correct by using the trusty right-click) .
I think I have a natural stutter anyway, though perhaps not a very strong one, and the fact that my speaking words are starting to sound baby-like, or the fact that I've started to speak more caveman-like (blame my work as an ALT for this; all that slow-talk and emphasising vocabulary that they've learnt, which is not a lot, to conduct an activity can be scarring) makes matters of communication worse. Though the feeling of embarrassment is much stronger (Note that I spelt "embarrassment" wrong the first time round, coincidently).

I also think I can sound much funnier through writing. I sound like a person with a good sense of humour, I mean. Or is that too much wishful thinking.

Let's just say that I find it easier to put my thoughts down onto words on paper or text on a screen than to say it on the spot using my vocal organs. I actually have to write down what I want to say before making a phone-call, not just regards to important adult things such as, say, bills, but when talking about slightly deeper matters with friends, as I don't trust myself to be able to express myself using only my brain and tongue.
I wonder if it's some sort of illness, or some form of "opposite-dyslexia" (Actually, both my younger brothers have dyslexia and I'm pretty sure my father is too).

It's the opposite case for me in Japanese though, which is my second language, weirdly. I guess that would be because I'm more used to speaking it then writing and reading it, nonetheless, I still find that I can express myself better through speaking Japanese than English.

I also have a phobia of phones, in the case of both my languages. Again, it's because I don't trust my speaking. I feel much more comfortable texting or e-mailing, though I'm also horribly lazy with that and don't get back to people for days. As a result, I'm hard to gain communication with.
This may be a problem that needs fixing. I would like to keep my lovely friends.

Oh look, I wrote a lot more for my first entry than I thought I would. First time readers can see that I'm a phone-hating, Japanese-English-speaking yet is-crap-at-talking clumsy-mouth who loves to write. That should be enough to convince people to keep reading, eh?

And isn't my Blog template pretty?
No, I didn't make it. I don't feel creative enough to make my own template yet.
I will, but I'm not looking forward to re-learning all the coding shizzle for Blogger.
For now, I think the Notebook look works quite well for my scribble-of-a-Blog.